Monday, December 1, 2008

Letting go

People come to our lives when we least expect them to. And when they do, we tend to love them and care for them so much that we give up so many things just to be with them. Sometimes we even tend to give them our whole lives thinking that this person will stay forever. I, for one, do have the tendency to depend my happiness on the person that I love. I neglect my friends and even my own family when I'm in love. Just to make that person feel that he is that much important to me, that he is the only one that could make me happy.

But then despite the years of being together there can't be no assurance that he is going to stay. Despite giving everything I can, still I can't make him happy, I can't give everything that would make him stay and love me forever.

And now, I'm left with another heartache, with a big empty space in my life... Why did it end up like this? Have I done anything wrong? These are just two of the questions I've been asking, which still remain unanswered.

I don't want to keep him in my life when he is no longer happy... I don't want to insist that he stays when I am no longer the person he would love to see when he wakes up. I don't want him to feel caged and suffocated by my love for him. There is nothing more to do now... than to let go.

I still have my heart, though it's already broken, I still know how to love, though I don't know if I should love again because loving again may mean another heartache.

1 comment:

marikenya said...

pops, u don't know how happy i am that you sounded strong in this post. masayang masaya ako not because of your lost but because u already learned how to be strong and cope with life's animosities. i may not be with you these past weeks physically but i still am the same friend who love you and cares for you and will always be here for you no matter what.